everything just feels too much

stop think and think again

thinking......

Why dont you do this

why dont you do that

its already enough

i think its a good way to change

atleast give it a try

i envy you can actually do this

maybe i cant but i will try

because i can see these will come to a point that i will just say

" Fuck off "

and i am sure things will be 10x worse

to my love ones

i dont want that moment to come true

x

havent done this for such a long long time

dont know why i suddently came on here

and saw something that would stay in my heart

for my friend

normally

what i said doesnt really mean anything

all i want is seeing you guys smile

if you guys are happy

you can never guess how much it means to me

so dont feel bad about your decisions

you can only be youself

and i will be happy for you to be youself

x

everything is changing

for me its sad

because this is the place i feel like home

these are the people that i feel like a family

this is the place that i can be a kid

which never had happen before

i am changing aswell

but

how important everything are will not change in my heart

because

i love being a kid

and this is the only place that i can be a real kid

sorry about all the trouble i made x

hope for a good start x 2011

more and more reasons to give up x

changed

changed again

changed again

and changed again

alright...

i always say the same thing

xx xxxx xx xxx xxx xxxxx - i'm fine...

but do remember

the choice .